I need a vacation...

It has been a stressful week. Last weekend Kevin left for Kentucky to go hunting. All was well because I knew my Mom was coming to hang out with me and Mallory so I wouldnt be by myself. I get up Sunday morning and my Mom stayed in bed but I thought no big deal b/c she had been working so hard. When I went back upstairs at 8:30 she was awake and she said that she had been dizzy all night. She tried to get out of the bed and couldnt she was so dizzy. To make a long story short she was sick all day. I was so worried b/c I had no way to get her to the ER b/c of Mallory. So finally on Monday morning when she was still not doing any better I called Steph and told her I needed her help that I needed her to come and get Mom so she could get home and so someone could drive her car home. They took her to Patient First and then later had to go to the ER. They ended up doing a scan and it came back ok. So she had an inner ear issue and was sick all week. I talked to her today and it was the first time she had been out all week. So she is now feeling better. So needless to say my Labor day weekend was very stressful taking care of Mallory by myself and running up and down stairs for my Mom.

So this weekend isnt any better. As many of you know 7 years ago Kevin had a major surgery. He had 18 inches of his colon removed. Well last night he says "The pains I am having are the same as the ones from 7 years ago". All I could do is just sit down. Really? Am I being punished for something? So if he needs to go to the ER who is going to take him just like last weekend with my Mom. Although now that I am posting this I think he is ok. He slept all day and is just taking it easy.

I know I should not be complaining but it seems like nothing can go in our direction and I know there are people in worst situations than me. I am just mentally exhausted. I wonder what other families do who do not have family close by. Kevin said they call a babysitter. Well that would be great if I wasnt so OCD and could leave my child with just anyone. I would just like to have some fun sometime instead of always having to worry about everyone else just for a couple of hours! Like my co-worker just said last week when it was her 35 birthday "I just want to go party like I was 21 and didnt have any children".